Here we are again
So what are we doing, are we just wasting time like some kids?
I don’t really want much from you, in fact I don’t want anything but some time. We find ourselves here every time lying crying, praying hoping and making the dumb promises that a dead man could never hope to keep.
This is not what you think it is. I haven’t been struck by love lightening, I am not falling for this woman beater all over again. I’m just trying to squeeze out some answers, an ounce of remorse , a morsel of a half hearted sorry. Maybe something to account for the wasted emotions. I don’t know. I am in a state of confusion at the moment, a walking talking tangled mass of a mess.
I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking you have heard it before. Trying to pretend to relate to what’s happening and coming to inconclusive conclusions. Save it for someone who cares because I don’t , the judgements you pass are just what’s on the surface because I know what I have been through. And being able to question Billy is the first step forward , the dutiful wife, the let me please lick your feet Billy, the I know you didn’t meant to hit me Billy, Jane is dead. It doesn’t mean that I am not still a bit shaky on my feet, but I have an idea of where I want to be. I am not deluding myself oh I’m past that. I am not young enough to be back on the market....
I don’t really want much from you, in fact I don’t want anything but some time. We find ourselves here every time lying crying, praying hoping and making the dumb promises that a dead man could never hope to keep.
This is not what you think it is. I haven’t been struck by love lightening, I am not falling for this woman beater all over again. I’m just trying to squeeze out some answers, an ounce of remorse , a morsel of a half hearted sorry. Maybe something to account for the wasted emotions. I don’t know. I am in a state of confusion at the moment, a walking talking tangled mass of a mess.
I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking you have heard it before. Trying to pretend to relate to what’s happening and coming to inconclusive conclusions. Save it for someone who cares because I don’t , the judgements you pass are just what’s on the surface because I know what I have been through. And being able to question Billy is the first step forward , the dutiful wife, the let me please lick your feet Billy, the I know you didn’t meant to hit me Billy, Jane is dead. It doesn’t mean that I am not still a bit shaky on my feet, but I have an idea of where I want to be. I am not deluding myself oh I’m past that. I am not young enough to be back on the market....
